Swam for an exact 1 hour today. 20 trips and a combination of breast stroke and butterfly stroke. They say it’s the best for weight loss. I thought I wouldn’t be able to catch the breath, but I did it.

Felt pretty good and leg felt pretty sore up.

These are the things I did to make a switch for food.

1. I drink a lot of water. If I am sick of water, I will make a jug of ocha greentea. That way I feel my water is less plain.
2. I pair my meats and vegetable (lauk) with lettuce. Lettuce is tasteless, light, filling and has a high water content. It is low in fiber though.
3. If I don’t have time for exercise, I will do a 200 sit ups.

I hesitate or a bit to post this on Instagram. I figure, I don’t need to tell the whole world how healthy I am or how successful I am with the progress. It’s only been three months and validation will come end of the year or a year. I don’t think I want so much admiration from people. In the end I did, just a mere reminder for me.

1st April 2020, I decided that I want to exercise. Exercise hasn’t been part of my regularity since I was a young kid. Body insecurities had started since I was 14 years old and it wasn’t a positive feeling to think that I could only wear certain kind of clothing with sleeves because I thought that I had a big arms. So once and for good, I want to incorporate exercise into my life. I want to beat body insecurities, I want to live a healthy life and I don’t want to be fat ever.

I think I started my diet with a starting weight of 59Kg and this morning I measured that I was 57,6Kg. So in total I lost 1,5 Kg. The old me would be so disappointed because I work hard and eat less but the result wasn’t that ‘much’ but the new me would be patient. Anything that I gain fast, I will also lose it fast (but this means the reverse in this sense).

What have I learned in the three months?

58,2 Kg today and I think this is water retention as I am 2-3 days to Period and today I feel like having a carb craving.

I just had kwetiaw for lunch and added 1 rotiboy after that. The good thing is that, I had my lunch late and I had a haircut this afternoon, so I wasn’t sitting around and looking for another carb-escape.

How I dealt with it?

Drink lots of water and understanding that this is carb craving, so stay strong, don’t give in. Telling myself over and over again that I am not hungry, but just craving for carbs works too.

I just had a bowl of kwetiaw. That’s soo much carb than normally I would eat for lunch !. I can’t have too much carbs or else it’s going to bring me back to my older weight and all of these workouts and stay healthy is going to go to the drain.

I don’t know if it’s wate

r weight or I basically gain weight, but this morning when I step on the scale it is 58,8 Kg an last week I was 57,3Kg, which means there is a big 1,5 Kg increase. There could be many things that contribute to my weight gain :

1. I feel a lack of motivation when it comes to exercise. Like I’m not giving it 100%, so maybe the body is not working properly in burning fats.
2. I indulged in pisang goreng and cakes at the end of the week.
3. I have been sedentary the past 1 week, mostly watching Youtube, so perhaps that also contributes to it.
4. My sleeping schedule has been quite disruptive, so that’s why, I think.
5. I am not on-time with work schedule, therefore there is an imbalance of hormone of sad and happy. This is due to number 3 and 4.

I almost lost the will to start, but after thinking about it again… if this is meant to be a lifestyle change, then I should stop making it feel like a program. If I want to incorporate healthy lifestyle and exercise into my life, then this should be like “nothing”.

Alright. I’m not gonna look at the scale again until next week or after the period is over, because that scares me . I’m going to do everything right and hopefully I’ll see the reward in the next 2 weeks.

I have been feeling quite anxious and impatient these days with the scale. Currently experiencing period and they say period causes you weight gain with all that water retention crap, so I’m thinking if my scale shows some increase in the digit, I blame it on the period. However, last month’s period didn’t show any signs of scaling down, and after period, my body weight stayed the same.

And it’s been stuck in that zone between that and 59,5 for the past 2 months despite the exercise and work out I have been doing almost daily, not forgetting my daily meals is nutritious and less snacking. Alright alright, I admit there are some days when I stuff myself with oatmeal raising cookies but other than that, I think I’ve been okay.

I definitely drink more than enough water. I ate vegetables, eggs, fish and avocados, and no rice. On Saturday I made 16 muffins because I wanted to make something. On Sunday I bought a sugar-free bubble milk tea. So not too strict and in moderation. My diet is not strict now because being in a strict diet regime is never lasting for me.

This week I’ve been doing dance routine by Jun Quemado ( Song: Visualize – SoMo) and it’s a hard work, yo ! Brave myself to post this on Steezy’s Forum and got some praises, which I hope they are genuine.

So, celebrating 58,6Kg for the 60th day, here’s a small dance victory, by yours truly.