Prettymuchnathania

More Signs please…

I previously wrote that I wanted to leave it to God and wanted more clear signs. He’s gonna be back in Jakarta tonight and I just want to make the best out of it.

So far, the kids are great with me. I swam with them, eaten with them and kids yesterday asked if I would want to swim with them 🙂 . And I heard them saying that I could come and visit them in their house in Jakarta. So I guess, so far so good.

He’s supposed to pick me up today at 8/9 ish, but decided to laze around since flight is rescheduled to later time. A bit sad like yaaa….:(( , coz he could just pick me up and let me spend time with the kids and him. I guess he wanted to laze around too and not cepet2 jalan to pick me up :). I’m using this time to just catch up on my sleep and watch JKN on Patreon.

After a little paranoia about me being touchy and cuddly, I think I managed to get it over with. It was first a bit scary coz he didnt ask me to lunch / dinner / out . I thought he’s just ilfeel . So when he said let’s go for dinner, I didn’t think twice to say yes. During the dinner, that’s when the kids asked me if I would care to join for them swimming. During the night I said I would be going to Ubud and so yesterday we went to Ubud and had a fun time eating in the car, found a cool coffee shop and given the tour around Capella. Oh, we met Ester, Kandra and ko Ayang too.

I spent the night talking to D…discussing about business ideas and how he motivated me to carry on with Urban Botanica dream.

Matcha Banana Chia Seed Pudding

This is breakfast for the lazy. I love breakfast for the lazy because it’s perfect for me. I don’t have to cook and the ingredient is not a lot and I can enjoy this any time, anywhere as long as I have the right container.

Carrot on my Birthday

People start to have motivation due to different reasons. Because of the reward and responsibility / like to do it.

For the sake of rewarding myself, I have bought a nice cheap tank top and have kept it at my friend’s house. I have told him that he can only give it to me if my weight is stable and I have been following a healthy lifestyle for a long term. Why tank top, just a simple reason. I have always felt insecure to wear something without shoulder cover. I feel that my arm is too big.

Often times I follow a strict diet regime only to fail once I reach the target weight. I give room for dessert, fried foods, no exercise for a week and a week becomes two, becomes a month and becomes always and forever. So I want to do something that stick, not just to see the scale but a leaner happier me in the long run.

10th December, if I deserve it, this white tanktop is gonna be mine.

Slow and Steady…

Here’s the mantra I live by these days :

Slow and steady win the race

The whole thing about losing weight is not just exercise and eating, but it’s a total awareness of the body. It includes transforming the whole thing, not just taking a food diet but also making yourself aware how you use your time to reach your destination.

I call it transformation because I am in it for the long run. I believe in working hard to get where I want so I also believe that there’s no short cut to be where I want to be. If it means I have to change my diet, I will. If it means I have to eat a certain type of food more, then I will too. I am still allowed to eat KFC, Pecel Lele, and all the yummy things, but not everyday, not every week.

It’s a total transformation control and I have to be patient for the results. The past problem of quitting my diet soon (or as soon as I hit the target weight) is because I do that all too fast and too furious in the beginning then I get bored or tired by being a picky eater. Nothing sticks then all I get is that yo-yo weight. So what I am going to do now is to do it slow and steadily.